I am apologizing now for the fact that my blog has been lame the past week or so, and I'm apologizing for the fact that it will probably remain so for a little longer.
You may have read my post from earlier this week about being sick and how difficult this has been. I thought it was all starting to pass last Saturday, but now it is Wednesday and I seem to have come nearly full circle again. The pain in my neck has spread to the back of my head and I am still having trouble doing anything but lay all day. Every time I get up my entire head starts pounding and I get this "freeze headache" feeling. I also lost my breakfast today for the first time in a week. Just when I thought things were getting better!
I went to the doctor Monday with concern that I had started to get better, but wasn't anymore. The doctor scared me a little bit by saying he thinks there might be a bone or brain issue. He said that I may have a bulging disc in my neck or my brain stem may be coming down and pressing on my spine. !!!!! WHAT???!!!! Luckily, he was a cautious doctor and ordered an MRI so we can see what's going on, which I should be getting later today. He also warned that I may have to go through with the spinal tap after all.
I haven't been to work in a week and a half, but my husband has been going to work all this week after staying with me most of last week. I hate to say it, but I've been very scared. I am usually a calm person, the person people call with problems or for sane advice. But this has really thrown me for a loop. With the way I've been feeling lately, I've been picturing all sorts of scary things happening to me while I'm alone at home during the day, and then my husband coming home to find me.... unconscious? Dead?
I know I'm overreacting, and believe me, God and I have been conversing a ton lately. But this whole illness has been so out of the ordinary, that I'm scared of what might happen. I'm also scared they won't be able to find out what is wrong.
So if you have a spare moment today, would you please pray for me? I could use some more strength.