Ok I'll just tell you (or show you)
|I need the more "finite" tests with words, not lines|
As some of you know, I lost an pregnancy last September and it definitely changed some things for me. Where before my reaction to being pregnant was just pure happiness and excitement, now the excitement is mixed with fear. I hate that, but it is still true. I am afraid of losing this baby like I did the last one. Yes, I know God is still God no matter what happens, and that he is in control either way, but I am still afraid.
But I remembered the words of one of you, my dear blog readers, who wrote to me last fall with condolences and encouraged me to not let one miscarriage get me down. This reader encouraged me to not allow one miscarriage to suck away the excitement of future pregnancies.
It is because of this reader that I am sharing this news with you now, when part of me just wants to hide the information in case I lose this child too. I am still early in my pregnancy and am still afraid, but I am choosing to celebrate this baby, no matter what happens.
If all of you could please pray for us, it would be greatly appreciated.