I am definitely a planner. It drives my husband crazy because I usually have our short term and long term plans outlined in my head before he even thinks about them. Sure this is a good thing in that it helps me to prepare and work towards goals, but it can also throw me off a little when things don't go the way I want them to.
I am going through a lot of life changes right now and it is really throwing me for a loop because I don't know what to expect. God has taken all of my carefully laid plans and wiped them away, leaving me standing here with no idea of "what now?"
When I became a Christian I got more than I ever bargained for. God gives us an amazing gift by offering us a sacrifice for our sins so that he can accept us as we are, sins and all. But then he goes another step further by spending the rest of our lives molding and making us into more godly people. It seems that God has decided to wrestle my control and over-planning away from me. He is definitely teaching me a lesson in living right now, in the moment, and not thinking of myself and all MY wants, needs, and plans for the future.
Instead I get to think about the present and what God's will is for me right now. And although it is an uncomfortable feeling for me, in that I am not used to it, it is wonderful to know that God loves me too much to leave me as I am.
Good quote! This year has been about God doing the same for me. Each time I have a baby I think 'I can't wait till things are "normal" again and I can get control back', but with each baby that happens later and later, and this time, I think I don't want it at all.
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